Ok so here is one long over due post! So much has happened, I am becoming such a lazy blogger. Ugh. Well... where to start? We'll start with the fact that I am watching the Notebook right now. This movie makes me feel like one emotional little sappy love sap. Favorite line: "So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day...." Awwwww. Love isn't easy. If it was easy it wouldn't be worth it. Right now my love isn't easy. I have been having a really hard time with it lately. Not the being in love part, that part does come easy. But the surviving without my love, that part is killing me. I have been feeling very alone. One hand written letter every three weeks makes it so incredibly hard to maintain a relationship. I know he is where he needs to me. I know this is what he needs to be doing, but man is it hard. I have to work at it every day. But I want to do that because I want to be with him. I am also re-reading New Moon. I feel like I can relate to it so much at this point in my two years. I seriously understand the comparison of feeling as if someone punched a hole through my chest, and if I don't hold myself together I will simply fall apart. I have to make a constant effort to not fall to pieces. Sounds pathetic right? Well it is. But that's ok. I know it will be worth it. I can honestly say I love him more everyday. This really is making us stronger, I know it. On a happy note, the end of this month marks a year. Are you kidding?? Where did the year go?! Maybe it really does fly by. Or maybe the time I spend without him isn't really worth remembering, so it just seems like time with him wasn't too long ago. Either way, I can remember thinking, at this time in two years, I will be counting days instead of years. Well, after this month I will be counting months instead of years, so at least that is one step closer. I honestly tip my hat to every girl who has survived this before me. You truely are stronger than you know!
Ok so moving on... Whitney and Ashley coming for a visit. It was basically awesome!! I love those girls. We had a blast! We went to all the parks, watched Fantasmic, saw La Nouba, went to a Christmas party... we did it all! Amazing how we can fit so much in to such a short amount of time.